We got a counter offer from the sellers...the original price. Our realtor Tanya called me tonight to let me know. She gave it a moment to sink in...then I said, "So...what was that business that their realtor told you that they are 'really motivated' and not to be afraid to make an offer? They didn't budge!" Tanya said, "That is how Debby (their realtor) operates." (was that derision I heard in her voice?) I said I really didn't see any hopes of a compromise when they counter with the same price they had set on the house. I'm thinking they have changed their mind about selling. I'm not playing! I hate games...I haven't danced in years...and I'm not getting into that.

I think we will have to sit and wait for a bit...put up with the arsehole landlord a bit longer (feed Scrawny a few more months) and just keep looking. There aren't too many houses hitting the market right now. I am going to use my time to go back to what I was doing before all this house hunting thing started...getting things together for job interviews.

I am kinda disappointed but...oddly enuff, I am relieved, too. Does that make me even weirder than any of you originally thot?


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That is a title of a movie that I like. It is one of those movies that I can watch a bazillion times and maybe get something else out of it, or notice something new. It isn't an exciting film or a great romance or comedy. It just IS.

"Sideways" is also a word I use to describe how something I see, hear, read, etc. 'hits me'. I just means that it isn't usual...most times it is a not so good thing.

WARNING: I am not in one of my better moods. It is not so much anxiety...although that is part of it. I am just NOT in a good mood.

When I have had a lot of anxiety or something that is just driving me all day, in order to lighten myself up, I tend to get, um, shall we say...super silly? It borders on very unnerving to some. My kids are used to it. They just look at me, shake their heads and say, "You're just weird!" It started yesterday morning when I went to drop my daughter off at school. There was an SUV in front of me with license plate that said something about 'icerink' and a bumper sticker that all I could make out was "I HOCKEY" I said it out loud, "I HOCKEY." "Okaaaaaayyy...Just how does one 'hockey'?" My daughter just gives me one of her withering looks and says, "The heart is missing." "So, it says, I hockey. And I want to KNOW how one would hockey!" "It is supposed to say 'I love hockey' but the heart is washed off!" "Well, maybe they washed the heart off so that is says 'I hockey' and I'm just wondering how they intend to 'hockey' becuz I didn't know you could make that a verb!" I turn to look at her and this is what I see... She says, "Just hurry up and pull over so I can escape." sigh...fine.

Then, last night I was being my obnoxiously silly self on the internet. Someone said, "cheers" and it REALLY hit me sideways! It was someone that I assumed knew me. Of course, how does one KNOW someone else all that well over the internet without actually meeting them in person and getting to know them? I am still feeling the sting of the sideways comment...it probably ticked me off WAY more than it would some other time...but I am just NOT in a good mood...as I warned earlier.

WHY? okay...went to the realtor's office and filled out all of the paperwork, signed sealed delivered...and now the dickering begins. I keep telling myself it is a good thing. BUT, we had to sit and endure the realtor's repeating of EVERYTHING 3 times! I finally got so impatient with it I told her..."We've bought a house before. We kinda got an idea about all of this paperwork. If we don't understand, we will ask." I didn't mean to be so blunt BUT neither one of us is MORONS and saying it once should be plenty. If I DON'T get it, I will not sign it unless I do! sheesh.

FURTHER KNOWLEDGE: If you really don't care to know me all that well, you can quit reading and move on to the next blog. I'm just giving you a choice now.

When I'm stressed I get stupid silly. It is when my humor surfaces the most. The sillier I am, the more stressed you know I am. It is a way of counteracting the negative.

Occassionally (and I do mean occassionally) I will be drinking. I have a low tolerance for alcohol so two drinks will basically do it for me. How I act with two drinks in me is not so much different than me stone cold sober. If I'm stressed...I'm goofy, drinking or not. Usually 'not'. If you don't get it, that's okay...my in-laws didn't get it either. Let's just say, after some sideways remarks from them (and they have NO room to throw stones!) I just quit...joking, being silly, etc. in their presence. I just sit, give them an occassional grunt (which is normal dialect for most of them), a tight smile and a nod in what might or might not be the appropriate place.

So...there ya go. This post might not make much sense either. But...shrug. My mood matches the gray, drippy weather. Actually, I think the weather is nicer today.

To get my mind off of my own so very serious life, I have been watching American Idol. And my kids have been watching it with me. My son said, "We used to diss it so bad...and now we watch it religiously...and VOTE!"

Here is the one contestant that I tune in for every week. I think he has the most talent of any of them. He not only has the voice and can play instruments, BUT he has the talent and nerve to change things around and tweak the arrangements. David Cook:

I just wanted to share that photo. I thot it was sweet.

Here is a link that will take you to a site that will explain better what I wrote in my blog post yesterday about the 'retraining the brain':
http://tlc.discovery.com/tv/make-you-thin/make-you-thin.html

Have to meet with the realtor later and do some figuring and fill out papers to make an offer on the house. I'm nervous and not feeling so good. This is such a big thing! And I am a wimp. sigh.

It is at least sunshining and warm today. AND my allergies are in over drive again.

That title sounds like a weird combination, doesn't it?

I went for a very long walk in the 'almost 70' degree temperatures last night. Evening. Whatever. I slipped the dinner in the oven and while it was in there I decided to use the wait time to walk.

Later that night I got the WORST headache! It wasn't a migraine but for the severity of the pain it might as well have been! I tried everything that I could think of at the time...and ice packs. I could NOT get to sleep it hurt so badly! Got my daughter off to school this morning and then came home and decided to take some allergy medicine becuz I had been sneezing my head off since about 4:30 a.m. And you know what? Half an hour later not only did the sneezing cease and desist BUT the headache was totally gone! You'd think that I would remember such things from year to year.

I picked Bethany up from school and her nose was all red and her cheeks...just like that last day of school that she was well enough to attend right before vacation. So, I handed her the allergy spray the doctor prescribed. We don't need to go down THAT road again, now do we? In fact, when 'the boys' get home from the golf course later, I shall be handing out allergy meds to TJ too. Not good...not good. Lots of mold spores and stuff you know.

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I was watching this guy on The Learning Channel last night. The title of the show intrigued me becuz it was called "I Can Make You Thin". So...I was curious. No pills, no operations...and the techniques he uses are the same ones used on my CD that I listen to to help me over come my anxiety. Self-hypnosis, retraining your brain, assigning negative feedback...all the same thing.

I know from some experience that this sort of thing works. Take my dislike of chocolate...and marichino cherries. The cherries I cannot eat without getting sick to my stomach becuz the taste of them is synonomous with red milky medicine I had to take as a child that tasted like marichino cherries and everytime I took that medicine it would make me terribly sick to my stomach and I would...uh...well...regurgitate for hours!

The chocolate reminds me of ExLax...which I took a lot of during my stint with anorexia many many many moons ago and the ExLax started making me violently ill.

My biggest cravings have to do with bread/bagels...that stuff. So, I did as this guy on the TV instructed and you know what? I have NOT been able to eat bread all day today. Whenever I feel hungry I pinch one of my left fingers and my thumb together and I get this sickening feeling in my stomach (along with nasty image in my head)and I reach for something better for me...veggies...apple. Then I pinch a right finger and thumb together and an image of taking a walk in the sunshine appears and I feel better. Weird, huh?

It works for my anxiety. Except there is no negative thing becuz the anxiety is already negative. I press a different finger on my right hand against my thumb and an image of sitting on the back swing and watching Scrawny eating her pile of nuts flashes into my head and I feel calm. So, there you go. We'll see if this all helps me as much as the ppl on the TV says it has helped them.

Hey...anything that is supposed to help without drugs or surgery is always a plus to me!